Why is it so hard to stay motivated, and so, so easy to make excuses? You know, I've been avoiding posting on this blog because I completely fell off the Healthy Lifestyle Wagon. I felt embarrassed, guilty, depressed. I could give a dozen excuses as to why I gained back the weight I'd managed to lose last year... Jeff's been out west working, I couldn't go to the gym because I didn't have anyone to watch the kids (ok, that one's legitimate, but doesn't excuse my total lack of exercise I could be fitting in at home), I'm exhausted from taking care of the house and kids by myself, homeschooling and babysitting. I've been too lazy to cook healthy meals (yeah, not a good excuse, but at least it's honest!). And so on, and so forth.
I should have been using this blog as a place to vent about those things and to try and motivate myself to keep going even in the face of difficulties. Instead I avoided it. Maybe this time, I can change that. Maybe I need a goal to work towards? Well, Jeff is coming home sometime around the end of June, and we're planning a vacation to Florida with the kids. Sure would be nice to feel not-completely-self-conscious in a bathing suit at the beach/water parks.